Sorry

I love you so very much
Even thou at times I do things that hurt,
I try so hard to hope that you always see,
How much you being in my life means to me,
I am sorry yet again for causing you pain,
that is the last thing I ever wanted to do,
Even when I am trying to look out for you and do the right thing,
I mess up, I am sorry for that too.
I hope that you still know how much I love and cherish you,
Like nothing else in my life gives me the trill of being loved by you.
So I hope that you listen and see it in my eyes
This sincere apology that comes with tears from deep inside.

xoxo, Tasya

Pergi Cinta

by: Audy

Terlambatku menyusuri jalan ini
Tersesat disaat kau menjauh
Terlambatku mengartikan cintamu
Kusadari setelah kau pergi

Berat hati menerima kehilanganmu
Tegarkan aku saat kau memilih dirinya

**
Pergi cinta
Lupakanlah aku cinta
Kurelakan dia ada di pelukmu
Pergi cinta
Hapus bayanganmu cinta
Bahagiakan dia cinta
Sampai akhir waktu engkau bersamanya

Terlambatku memenangkan hatimu
Setelah kau menyerah padaku
Ku tak tau sampai kini kau berlalu
Tersadar dirimu selalu di hatiku

Berat hati menerima kekalahanku
Tegarkan aku kini kau menjadi miliknya

Back to **

100 things!

1. Last beverage → tea
2. Last phone call → Billy
3. Last text message → Billy
4. Last song you listened to → the climb
5. Last time you cried → yesterday

SIX HAVE YOU EVER:
1. Dated someone twice → no
2. Been cheated on? → no
3. Kissed someone & regretted it? → yes
4. Lost someone special? → yes
5. Been depressed? → yes
6. Been drunk and threw up? → no

LIST FOUR FAVORITE COLORS:
1. purple
2. blue
3. red
4. yellow

HAVE YOU:
1. Made new friends → yes
2. Fallen out of love → yes
3. Laughed until you cried → yes
4. Met someone who changed you → yes
5. Found out who your true friends were → yes
6. Found out someone was talking about you → yes
7. Kissed anyone on your friend list → no
8. How many people on your friend list do you know in real life → too much
9. How many kids do you want to have → 3
10. Do you have any pets → no
11. Do you want to change your name→ no
12. What did you do for your last birthday → have a special moment with someone
13. What time did you wake up today → 9.30 AM
14. What were you doing at midnight last night? → in a call with Billy
15. Name something you CANNOT wait for → much
16. Last time you saw your father→ 30 minutes ago
17. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life → be a good person
18. What are you listening to right now → nothing
19. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom → yeah
23. What's getting on your nerves right now? → -_- nothing
24. Most visited web page → twitter

1. What's your name → Natasya Olivia Dewanto
2. Nicknames → Tasya
3. Relationship Status → taken
4. Zodiac sign → pisces
5. Male or female or transgendered → female
6. Elementary → SDI Al - Azhar 08 Kembangan
7. Middle School → SMPN 111 Jakarta
8. High school → SMAN 78 Jakarta
10. Hair color → dark brown
11. Long or short → long
16. Height → dunno
17. Do you have a crush on someone? → yes
18. What do you like about yourself → much
19. Piercings →
20. Tattoos → no
21. Righty or lefty → -_-

FIRSTS :
22. First surgery →
23. First piercing → never
24. First best friends → dieska
26. First sport you joined → swim?
27. First pet → hamster
28. First vacation → bali!
29. First concert → forget
30. First crush → forget
49. Eating → -_-
50. Drinking → --_-
52. I'm about to → idk
53. Listening to → forget
55. Waiting for → forget

YOUR FUTURE :
58. Want kids? → yes of course
59. Want to get married? → yes
60. Careers in mind? → psychologist
68. Lips or eyes → eyes
69. Hugs or kisses → hugs
70. Shorter or taller → taller
71. Older or Younger → older
72. Romantic or spontaneous → both
73. Nice stomach or nice arms → both
74. Sensitive or loud → sensitive
77. Trouble maker or hesitant → not both of it

HAVE YOU EVER :
78. Kissed a stranger → no
79. Drank hard liquor → no
80. Lost glasses/contacts → no
81. Sex on first date → no
82. Broken someone's heart → yes
83. Had your own heart broken → yes
85. Been arrested → no
86. Turned someone down → yes?
87. Cried when someone died → yes
88. Liked a friend that is a girl? → no

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself → yes
90. Miracles → yes
91. Love at first sight → yes
92. Heaven → yes
93. Santa Clause → no? maybe?
95. Kiss on the first date? → yes
96. Angels → yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
97. Is there one person you want to be with right now ? → yes
98. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time → no
100. Posting this as 100 Truths? → yes

B! (give love a try)

haaaaaaaaaaaai. long time no see ya guys. saat ini bisa dibilang lagi suka dukanya hidup. tapi saat ini yang mau gue ceritain adalah sukanya dulu tapi dukanya juga deh tapi nanti yaaaa. sekarang gue mau cerita senengnya dulu. btw gue jadian sama someone namanya...............................guess who? namanya adalah Billy Muhammad Fadillah. gue jadian sama dia tanggal 2 februari 2011 setelah beberapa minggu deket. gue sama dia mulai deket lagi pas hari rabu tanggal 12 januari 2011. lama banget ngga sih pdktnya? tapi dengan jangka waktu selama itu kita bahagia bahagia aja tuh ngejalanin semuanya walau orang nanya mulu gue jadian apa engga sama Billy.


sekarang udah mau 2 minggu wkwkwk masih baru banget kan ya tapi gue sayang kok sama dia. yang di post 'ex boyfriend; case closed' itu bener bener gue jalanin kan? good for this change. pokoknya sekarang gue sayang sama pacar baru gue itu. gue yakin kok dia ngga seperti kata orang-orang yang bilang dia playboy lah atau apapun itu. lagian gue udah kenal dia sejak SMP dan ya menurut gue dia adalah orang yang baik dan serius jadi.......................apa yang harus gue takutin kalo pacaran sama dia? ditinggal? gue udah sering di tinggal ya walau belom kebal tapi gue udah tau gimana tanda-tanda cowok yang bakalan ninggalin gue. takut di selingkuhin? itu sih paling-paling beware deh tapi gue percaya dia ngga akan selingkuh, paling suka sama beberapa cewek dan semua orang punya hak untuk suka sama seseorang jadi? ini mah tergantung aja dianya gatel apa engga.

tapi suatu tragedi terjadi sebelum kita jadian. gue sama dia kecelakaan di jembatan deket peninsula. kita berdua jatoh dari motor yang lagi dia bawa ngebut. ya lo semua tau lah jadinya gimana. saat ini udah 2 minggu setelah kejadian itu dan gue belum bisa jalan juga. hari ini gue kesekolah cuma buat klinik dan untuk naik, susahnyaaaaa setengah mampus deh. tapi gue harus bisa ngelawan rasa sakit itu, gimana pun gue masih punya tanggungan di sekolah. gue udah melewatkan banyak hal disekolah dan gue udah melalaikan tugas gue sebagai murid. tapi kejadian itu ngga ngerubah apapun diantara gue dan Billy. we still keep our love. rasa marah gue sama dia yang ngga mau denger kata-kata gue ketutup sama rasa sayang gue ke dia. terus tadi kita baru ketemu lagi setelah 2 minggu. damn I miss him so much. ya walau tadi dia dijemput bokapnya dan harus buru-buru pulang tapi tetep kena marah, dia tetep senyum kok ke gue. sebelum pulang dia genggam tangan gue dan itu makin bikin gue berat lepasinnya. cuma 10 menit ketemunya :( senin masuk ngga ya gue? valentine tuh........................

Billy & me
itu dandanan termenor seumur hidup gue. kalo ngga buat pentas juga ogah

kesimpulannya....................gue sama dia selalu bersama kan dalam keadaan suka maupun duka? itu yang gue butuhin dari sebuah hubungan. tadi pas turun dari lantai 2 pas selesai klinik juga ada dia kok yang gendong gue. maaf ya bil aku cekek abisnya kakiku sakit pas digendong tadi-_-

last; Love you, Bil



to be continue......

xoxo, Tasya

what they taught

Lady Gaga taught me Its okay to be different.

Ke$ha taught me to be myself and not care what anyone else thinks.

Bruno Mars taught me to do anything for that one person I love.

Eminem taught me that life is hard but you can make it through.

Taylor Swift taught me not every guy is going to treat me right.

Michael Jackson taught me to always love the people around me.

Bob Marley taught me to live my life in peace.

and Music taught me how to live.

xoxo, Tasya

mix your name

I got it from someone's blog. terus gue nyobain dan its good enough kok. try it guys.

1. YOUR REAL NAME:
natasya olivia
2. YOUR GANGSTA NAME:
(first 3 letters of real name plus izzle)
natizzle
3. YOUR SPY NAME:
(favorite colour and favourite animal)
pink hamster
4. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME:
(your middle name and street you live on/or neighborhood if it's a number)
olivia magdalena
5. YOUR STAR WARS NAME:
(the first 3 letters of your last name, and first 2 letters of your first name)
olina
6. YOUR SUPERHERO/CRIMINAL NAME:
(your 2nd favorite colour, and favourite drink)
purple ice tea
7. YOUR IRAQI NAME:
(2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, 1st letter of your last name, 2nd letter of your moms maiden name, and 3rd letter of your dads)
naolivyudew
8. YOUR WITNESS PROTECTION NAME:
(parents middle names)
yuliadewanto
9 . YOUR GOTH NAME:
(black, and the name of one of your pets)
Black marcey
10 . YOUR HOOD NAME:
(first 3 of your first name, and add -iqua)
nasiqua

xoxo, Tasya

cute nail!

LOOK HERE! its-so-damn-awesome! gimana coba bisa bikin kuku kayak gitu. keren banget ya sumpah. gue juga mau dong kalo digambar kayak gitu kukunya (krik.....-_-") tapi gue serius ya ini lucu banget.



kalo aja ada dimana gitu bikinnya, kabarin gue dooong, pengen banget hehehe :)

xoxo, Tasya