I am, try my best

re-post. this is the time when i try to fix the broken pieces.

"Love is passion. obsession. someone you can't live without. someone you fall head over heels for. find someone you can love like crazy, and will love you the same way back. listen to your heart. no sense in life without this. to make the journey without falling deeply in love, you haven't lived a life at all. you have to try, because if you haven't tried, then you haven't lived."
-Meet Joe Black

coba pahami kata-kata itu. kata orang kalo kita gak punya cinta, berarti kita gak hidup sepenuhnya. gue yakin banget kata-kata itu gampang dimengerti kalo emang lo mau coba jadi diri yang lebih baik. gue mau tulis semua kutipan yang gue catet di binder gue tapi terlampau banyak kata-kata yang bisa ngubah dunia lo. gue bukannya sok tau tapi keadaan yang ngajarin gue arti hidup yang sebenernya. gue pernah sekali memikirkan kalo mati itu pasti bakalan bantu hidup gue nyelesein masalah, tapi setelah gue pikir pikir lagi......................buat apa gue mati kalo gue cuma bakalan bikin orang yang sayang sama gue nangis dan kerepotan buat ngurus pemakaman gue? lagipula kalo emang tugas gue di dunia udah selese, gue juga bakalan mati sendiri.

gue adalah gue dan cuma gue yang bisa ngerti dan paham apa yang gue rasain. gue gak bisa maksa orang lain buat ngertiin apa yang gue rasa. gue gak bisa meminta mereka ngerti kalo gue sendiri aja gak bisa bikin diri gue ngertiin apa yang gue mau. gue cuma mau negasin kalo gue cuma mau damai jalanin hidup gue. tapi, banyak banget alasan kenapa hidup gue lebih rumit dari apa yang selalu ada di mimpi mimpi gue. gue sadar, kalo mimpi ketinggian, kalo jatoh rasanya pasti bakalan sakit banget, lebih sakit daripada lo tau kalo hasil ujian gue jatoh atau hasil tugas gue dirobek sama guru. lebih sakit daripada ditinggal sama cowok gue karena gue tau, dibalik hal itu, ada seseorang yang menanti gue dari kejauhan. gue udah terlampau bego saat gue nangisin dia selama 3 bulan terakhir itu tapi itu sebulan yang lalu. gue harus mampu face the truth that he give me the best past, not to try to bring him back. gue gak boleh memaksa dia kembali, gue harus mampu hadepin semua itu walau butuh waktu yang lama. berarti sekarang, gue bisa hadepin semua rintangan yang ada di depan gue. semua kejadian itu pasti pelajaran buat gue dimasa mendatang. lo bisa lari dari semua itu tapi pilihan terbaik adalah lo belajar dari semua itu.

"The past can hurt. but you can either run from it, or learn from it."
-Lion King

gue mulai belajar dari kesalahan. belajar dan belajar sampe gue nemuin jawaban atas semua hal itu. itu salah gue atau...............salah orang lain? yang pasti gue belajar. gue berusaha jadi yang terbaik dan berusaha gak ngulang kesalahan yang sama setelah ini. kebegoan yang gue lakuin bukan cuma bakalan ngerugiin gue, tapi juga bisa ngerugiin orang yang gue sayang dan menyayangi gue. bahkan yang gak kenal sama gue bisa kena imbasnya akibat sebuah kelalaian gue.

Terkadang gue takut memulai sesuatu yang asing bagi hidup gue. gue takut gue salah memulainya dan semakin jauh gue melangkah, semakin salah apa yang gue ambil. tapi kata nyokap gue "kalo kita takut, kapan kita tau hasilnya?" then gue berpikir, bener juga kata nyokap. kalo kita takut dan gak berani coba, kapan kita bakalan tau jadinya gimana. gue berterima kasih banget sama nyokap yang selama ini nyuport gue. nyokap gue juga bilang "jangan takut dengan sebuah akhir, emang mungkin kebanyakan akhir bikin kamu takut, tapi mama yakin kamu bisa hadapinnya." oh mom, thanks god I've got a beautiful understanding mom :)

"Beginnings are usually scary and ending are usually sad, but it's everything in beetwen that makes it all worth living."
-Hope Float

Berusaha buat bangkit dan gak takut lagi ngadepin hari esok adalah suatu perubahan besar dalam hidup gue. gue termasuk orang yang tertutup sama keluarga, tapi begitu denger nyokap gue yakin banget sama kata-katanya..................gue mulai membuka lembaran baru dan berbagi seneng susah gue sama mereka. just keep try to talk to your family, that was will be help.

xoxo, Tasya

heal the pain

broken.


hmmm apa yang membuat semua hal menjadi lebih menyedihkan dari yang lo bayangin? gue lebih milih sakit flu daripada sakit hati. tapi terkadang kesakitan itu juga yang bisa bikin lo bangkit. buat lo lebih tegar dari yang sebelum-sebelumnya. ngajarin lo banyak hal yang ngga semua hal di dunia ini menyenangkan.

gue sama rian............yeah we broke up last night with acceptable reason. ya gue ngga mungkin sebar semua kehidupan gue disini. gue cuma mau bilang kalo ngga selamanya kebahagiaan berasal dari seseorang yang mungkin cuma sebentar sayang sama lo.



then, you will cry over the night. blame yourself because never be the best for him. try to figure out what's wrong with this shit. well, there's nothing you can do than sit down next to the window, looking out, convinced yourself that everything will be fine. crying alone in your own mind. try to heal the pain. but you can't. fix the broken heart really need time, long time to make it fix like it used to.

xoxo, Tasya

love

remember this?

Cinta.


apa yang kita tau tentang cinta? segala sesuatunya berupa rasa, itu intinya kan? tapi kalian salah. cinta itu bukan sekedar rasa. itu sesuatu yang luar biasa kalo menurut gue apalagi orang orang yang pernah merasakannya. merasakan sakitnya dan merasakan betapa indahnya. gue kagum, perasaan yang namanya cinta itu gak lepas dari semua orang. setiap detik kita merasakan semua itu dan kita mengalami betapa hebatnya.

satu kata dengan banyak arti.
bukan cuma lo yang ngerasain. tapi orang orang disektiar lo juga merasakan hal yang sama.

cinta itu indah.
bila kita yakini begitu karena semua hal yang kita mulai dengan senyum belum tentu akan berakhir dengan senyuman juga.

cinta itu menjunjung rasa kasih sayang, kita dekat dan kita berbagi.
terkadang rasa cinta itu menghilang tapi rindu akan membuatmu sadar kalau hati itu membutuhkan sayang.

cinta itu butuh waktu.
gak semua hal akan terjadi langsung setelah kita berharap, gak secepat itu. cinta itu juga butuh waktu, butuh proses dan kita harus bersabar dengan semua itu.

cinta itu membuat kita bahagia.
walau tak selamanya, tapi hati ini akan lebih mencintai adanya cinta sementara dibanding tak ada sama sekali

cinta itu penuh halangan.
kita harus berusaha demi cinta kita, walau begitu banyak badai menghadang tapi dengan kekuatan, kita mampu melawannya

cinta itu saling menjaga.
dalam sebuah keadaan, cinta akan diuji. tapi dengan saling menjaga, pasti semuanya bisa diatasi.

cinta itu menyayangi satu sama lain.
hal ini harus dijalin dan dijaga selama kita bisa

cinta itu tidak melihat perbedaan diantaranya.
walau bagaimanapun keadaannya, cinta tak melihat dari fisik, kita melihatnya dari hati. kita merasakannya.

cinta itu bisa membuat kita jatuh.
gak selamanya cinta itu berbuat manis, pasti suatu ketika, cinta itu mendampakan kepedihan. siap jatuh cinta, siap juga patah hati

terkadang cinta membuat kita hancur.
ketika putus adalah jalan terbaik, kita harus menerimanya. kita harus melihat sisi baik dari semua hal yang ada

cinta bukan hanya sekedar hadiah.
cinta itu makna, tidak bisa digambarkan dengan apapun. hanya perasaan lah yang mampu menggambarkan bagaimana rasanya walau tak bisa diungkapkan

cinta dapat menciptakan kebencian.
kebencian di dalam cinta seumpama bila suatu dendam merasuk. bila salah satu melakukan kesalahan, rasa benci bisa saja lebih besar dari rasa cinta. sedalam apapun itu tapi gue yakin cinta itu dapat kembali dan kebencian itu terasa seperti tak pernah ada

cinta itu buta.
lo semua pasti tau hal ini kan? dapat diartikan cinta itu gak memandang gimana lo, keluarga lo atau apapun tapi cinta itu bener bener tulus dari hati dan gimana lo menjalankannya

dan cinta itu penuh warna dan bermacam-macam

seperti 30 jawaban dari 30 orang yang berbeda-beda tentang cinta............

"cinta itu adalah sesuatu perasaan yang kita miliki terhadap seseorang yang kita sayang, suka, care tapi cinta juga bisa bikin sakit hati jika cinta kita tak terbalas sama seseorang yang kita cintai" -Mochammad Ilham Hilmiyansyah

"cinta itu kasih sayang yang tulus tanpa ada sesuatu yang memaksa.bisa menerima pasaangan apa adanya, saling melengkapi dan mengerti satu sama lain" - Visca Nahdya

"cinta itu bikin pusing" -Lovira Ladieska

"cinta itu au ah gue bingung -_-" -Rayhan Hadi

"cinta itu rasa sayang yang lebih dari sayang, bisa nerima dia apa adanya, mau selamanya sama dia, susah walaupun senang" -Rosalia Eka Putri

"cinta itu rasa yang bisa ngebuat orang ngelakuin apa aja" -Lintang Ridzki Darmawan

"cinta itu sebuah perasaan atau sesuatu yang harus di perkorbankan karena dihasilkan dari sayang dan suka dijaiin satu" -Holynez Amalia

"cinta itu sesuatu yang suci yang harsunya gak dipermainkan dan harus dijaga. sesuatu perasaan yang pasti semua orang di dunia ngerasain itu" -Annisa Nur Hanani

"cinta itu bullshit tapi terkadang cinta itu indah" -Kemas Chanadri Aqil Ditratama

"cinta itu sesuatu yang gak bisa di jelasin" -Sarah Valeda Vania

"cinta itu ketulusan dari hati yang bener bener gak bisa di ungkapin" -Qotrun Nada

"cinta itu perasaan orang ke apapun yang dia suka" -Ninette Putri Mustika

"cinta itu ketulusan" -Syavira Ashila

"cinta itu konsumsi kita setiap waktunya" -Nurul Meutia Salsabila

"cinta itu susah untuk di definisikan karena itu perasaan jadi biasanya di rasa" -Hera Nurlita Putri

"cinta itu kebahagiaan" -Mudrika Rismawati

"cinta itu satu" -Sonia Soeharto

"gue gak tau arti cinta" -Sandi Koesmawan

"cinta itu turun dari mata ke hati" -Della Rachelia Vikarani

"cinta itu anugrah" -Suci Ayu

"cinta itu sebuah perasaan" -Rehan Farobi

"love is unpredictable. sisah ditebak, datang secara tiba tiba dan pada akhirnya akan meninggalkan luka dan kesedihan" -Khansa Fimantari

"cinta itu adalah sesuatu yang kita rasakan dan mucul dari lubuk hati kita yang paling dalam saat kita menyukain dan menyayangin seseorang dalam kehidupan kita. suatu rasa yang sangat indah dan takkan mampu diungkapkan hanya dengan kata kata" -Ayubi Solahudin Al Pasha

"cinta itu Tesar Hikal" -Ayu Sekar Putri

"cinta itu perasaan yang ada buat orang yang di pedulikan" -Rana Vinita

"cinta itu rasa sayang yang bisa datang dan pergi" -Friska Rani Farradina

"cinta itu cerita indah namun tiada arti" -Muhammad Hadimas

"cinta itu buta" -Ardina Putri

"cinta itu gak mandang fisik, gak mandang ekonomi, gak mandan apapun kecuali hati, mengenal lebih dalam pasangan kita, cinta itu menerima apa adanya gak denger apa kata orang, denger kata hati sendiri, cinta itu gak bisa di obatin kalo udah sakit banget, kalopun bisa juga lukanya gak akan hilang, cinta itu rasanya beda dari sayang" -Ezzie Sukandar

"cinta itu kita rela biarin orang yang kira cintain sama orang yang dia suka, kita gak boleh egois, apapun yang buat dia seneng, kita juga seneng" -Vidy Sylviana


itu kata mereka tentang cinta. menurut gue cinta itu dari hati. penyimpulannya juga gue masih belom tau walau udah 30 orang yang jawab. gue belom bisa menyimpulkannya. tapi bagi gue cinta itu seperti post gue yang sebelumnya. gue belom bisa mastiin apa yang harusnya terjadi kalau semua rasa itu gak ada. dunia hampa banget kali ya.

terkadang gak selamanya semuanya berjalan mulus. terkadang kita gagal dalam suatu hubungan, itu memang hal yang biasa tapi susah diterima oleh sebagian orang. cinta itu harusnya menunjukkan kasih sayang bukannya memendam rasa benci. gue sendiri pernah ngerasain itu, gue tau gak cuma gue, tapi banyak. patah hati? biasa sih cuma ya pada awalnya adalah suatu bencana yang susah banget buat dimengerti tapi lambat laun rasa sakit itu hanya sekedar rasa dan lo bakal siap punya pengganti bagi hati lo yang belum sembuh seutuhnya.


gue menemukan sebuah puisi tentang cinta dari Rani yang gue sendiri gak tau siapa rani itu

Pernahkah kamu merasakan,
bahwa kamu mencintai seseorang,
meski kamu tahu ia tak sendiri lagi, dan
meski kamu tahu cintamu mungkin tak berbalas,
tapi kamu tetap mencintainya,

Pernahkah kamu merasakan,
bahwa kamu sanggup melakukan apa saja demi seseorang yang kamu cintai,
meski kamu tahu ia takkan pernah peduli ataupun
ia peduli dan mengerti, tapi ia tetap pergi.

Pernahkah kamu merasakan hebatnya cinta,
tersenyum kala terluka,
menangis kala bahagia,
bersedih kala bersama,
tertawa kala berpisah,

Aku pernah .........

Aku pernah tersenyum meski kuterluka !
karena kuyakin Tuhan tak menjadikannya untukku,
Aku pernah menangis kala bahagia,
karena kutakut kebahagiaan cinta ini akan sirna begitu saja,

Aku pernah bersedih kala bersamanya,
karena kutakut aku kan kehilangan dia suatu saat nanti, dan......

Aku juga pernah tertawa saat berpisah dengannya,
karena sekali lagi, cinta tak harus memiliki, dan
Tuhan pasti telah menyiapkan cinta yang lain untukku.

Aku tetap bisa mencintainya,
meski ia tak dapat kurengkuh dalam pelukanku,
karena memang cinta ada dalam jiwa, dan bukan ada dalam raga.

Semua orang pasti pernah merasakan cinta..
baik dari orang tua... sahabat.. kekasih dan
akhirnya pasangan hidupnya.

Buat temenku yg sedang jatuh cinta.. selamat yah..
karena cinta itu sangat indah.
Semoga kalian selalu berbahagia.

Buat temanku yg sedang terluka karena cinta...
Hidup itu bagaikan roda yang terus berputar,
satu saat akan berada di bawah dan hidup terasa begitu sulit,
tetapi keadaan itu tidak untuk selamanya,
bersabarlah dan berdoalah karena cinta yang lain
akan datang dan menghampirimu.

Buat temanku yang tidak percaya akan cinta... buka hatimu ...
jangan menutup mata akan keindahan yang ada di dunia
maka cinta membuat hidupmu menjadi bahagia.

Buat temanku yang mendambakan cinta.. bersabarlah..
karena cinta yang indah tidak terjadi dalam sekejab..
Tuhan sedang mempersiapkan segala yang terbaik bagimu.

ini adalah akhir dari artikel gue. gue cuma mau pesen satu hal, jangan bikin cinta itu jadi bumerang buat hidup lo. gue cuma mau berbagi sama kalian semua. semoga artikel ini bisa bikin perubahan yang besar yaaaaa

inget ngga gue pernah posting tentang ini? sekarang lagi cari bahan buat part 2. be participate! :)

xoxo, Tasya

chairmate

hai! kali ini gue mau cerita tentang temen sebangku gue yang suppppper saman lovers. namanya Nada Farhana Bakri. she's pretty enough, no i means yes she's pretty.

dia ngga jauh beda lah sama gue. kita hidup dengan kata 'woles'. banyak banget tugas gue yang sekelompok sama dia dan belom jadi. sampe sekarang pun segala sesuatunya masih dianggap woles. liat aja nih entar pas udah deket-deket ambil rapot masih woles, gue benerin aja nilai gue sendiri-_-

now here we are...

me & Nada

gue pasti bakalan dibunuh kalo nada tau gue share foto-foto yang lainnya tapi its okay let me share all of it. walau cacat tapi woles lah ya hahahaha.

okedeh udah ya yang lainnya bener-bener aib. dia ini arab banget. ibu bapaknya pun arab. dia bener-bener punya banyak fans dan yes actually she loves one person in her life and until this time, she can't forget. jadi yang merasa suka sama Nada, keep calm and get her heart ok? :p

selama duduk sama dia, we share everything. about life, love, and gossip. we talk everything we could dan menurut gue asik-asik aja sih kalo sama dia. ini perempuan hobinya pake parfum terus, tiap pergantian jam pasti pake dan ya minta dikit gapapa lah. dia ini tipe cewek yang outgoing. kayaknya diajak kemana-mana ayok aja. hmm apalagi ya bingung hehehe. segitu aja ya. see ya later.

xoxo, Tasya

61011♥

HAAAAAAAIIIIII sekarang pacar gue udah bukan yang kemaren gue post itu. sekarang namanya adalah Vallerian Gusti Putra!<3 cowok ini temen sd gue dan ya belom lama ini deket lagi sama gue. hmm sebenernya mau ceritanya kapan-kapan aja tapi ya cuma mau share aja ke kalian. besok-besok di shared deh fotonya. see ya^^

xoxo, Tasya

someone

Seseorang......
Jika dia sudah jatuh cinta, sulit rasanya membedakan mana yang benar mana yang salah.
Jika dia sudah buta akan cintanya, ia mampu menerobos rasa sakit yang harusnya tak mampu ia cegah.

xoxo, Tasya

dealing holiday with movies

Haaaai, gue sekarang lagi pengen banget nonton nih huhu tapi izin keluarnya susah banget gitu. Biasalah kalian kan tau sendiri gimana bokap gue yang susah banget dan mana rapot gue jelek jadi mau apa lagi yakan? Yaudah terima nasip aja deh ya dikurung dirumah. Tapi saat ini gue pengen nonton beberapa film nih, katanya sih bagus bagus gitu


1. Milly & Nathan
2. Beastly
3. Insidious
4. Scream 4
5. The Art of Getting By (this thing, ngga tau bakalan ada apa engga di indonesia)

Gimana pun caranya gue mau banget nonton. Masa gue liburannya nganggur dirumah? Kan ngga asik banget. Mana ke Bandungnya masih minggu depan lagi dan sekarang mau ditinggal Ziemans keliling jawa, its there so not-into-good-holiday. Huft tapi terima nasip, siapa tau ada berkah ya gue dirumah wkwk. Yang terpenting sekarang adalah ini liburan, jadi harus seneng-seneng sebelum mulai sekolah lagi, belajar lagi dari awal tentang IPS itulah. Moga-moga aja gue pinter yak. Pokoknya ini liburan mau nonton banget. Uangnya tinggal minta mama dan harus dikasih gak peduli gimana pun caranya.

xoxo, Tasya

him

hai, i would tell you something about someone i do in love with. his name is Ziemans Hendratama Majid. we can just call him ziemans. gue jadian kira-kira 2 bulan lalu tepatnya tanggal 9 april 2011.

awalnya gue ngga tau kalo jadinya bakalan kayak gini. kita bertemen ngga terlalu akrab then he was there when i need someone lalu jadilah kita berdua. awal yang ngga terlalu baik tapi i love it.

this is Ziemans & I

I do love him, sure I do. He loves me. I know it. And I hope this relationship getting better day by day. Jalanin semua ini lebih mudah kalo emang saling percaya dan gue berusaha melakukan itu. Trust each, loving each and be happy each. That's all I want to be.

P.S. I love you

xoxo, Tasya

broke up

hai readers. sekarang gue adalah single ladies who will find another prince to pick me up! hahahahaha gue putus kayaknya biasa aja ya? iyalah, gue putus ya emang di putusin dan harusnya sedih, but? setelah diputusin dan melewati masa-masa sedih yang cuma 4 jam setelah putus itu, I've move on! hell-yeah kenapa ngga dari dulu aja deh move on segampang itu? gue putus 2 minggu lalu tanggal 22 maret pas 1 bulan 21 hari. then, gue ngga peduli lagi. gue putus karena alasan yang ya ada yang masuk akal dan ada yang engga, dan yang paling enek adalah.....................udahlah ngga usah dibahas lah, lagian gue udah ilfeel sama dia dan keluarganya, absolutely yes. males banget kenal sama keluarga yang kayak gitu *yang merasa, maaf bgt jangan tersinggung but its truly truly true*

sudah lelah membahas tentang mantan, ini cuma mau ngasih tau doang. abis ini maybe gue mau membahas tentang someone new who fill in the blank of my life, in heart I mean :)

xoxo, Tasya

Sorry

I love you so very much
Even thou at times I do things that hurt,
I try so hard to hope that you always see,
How much you being in my life means to me,
I am sorry yet again for causing you pain,
that is the last thing I ever wanted to do,
Even when I am trying to look out for you and do the right thing,
I mess up, I am sorry for that too.
I hope that you still know how much I love and cherish you,
Like nothing else in my life gives me the trill of being loved by you.
So I hope that you listen and see it in my eyes
This sincere apology that comes with tears from deep inside.

xoxo, Tasya

Pergi Cinta

by: Audy

Terlambatku menyusuri jalan ini
Tersesat disaat kau menjauh
Terlambatku mengartikan cintamu
Kusadari setelah kau pergi

Berat hati menerima kehilanganmu
Tegarkan aku saat kau memilih dirinya

**
Pergi cinta
Lupakanlah aku cinta
Kurelakan dia ada di pelukmu
Pergi cinta
Hapus bayanganmu cinta
Bahagiakan dia cinta
Sampai akhir waktu engkau bersamanya

Terlambatku memenangkan hatimu
Setelah kau menyerah padaku
Ku tak tau sampai kini kau berlalu
Tersadar dirimu selalu di hatiku

Berat hati menerima kekalahanku
Tegarkan aku kini kau menjadi miliknya

Back to **

100 things!

1. Last beverage → tea
2. Last phone call → Billy
3. Last text message → Billy
4. Last song you listened to → the climb
5. Last time you cried → yesterday

SIX HAVE YOU EVER:
1. Dated someone twice → no
2. Been cheated on? → no
3. Kissed someone & regretted it? → yes
4. Lost someone special? → yes
5. Been depressed? → yes
6. Been drunk and threw up? → no

LIST FOUR FAVORITE COLORS:
1. purple
2. blue
3. red
4. yellow

HAVE YOU:
1. Made new friends → yes
2. Fallen out of love → yes
3. Laughed until you cried → yes
4. Met someone who changed you → yes
5. Found out who your true friends were → yes
6. Found out someone was talking about you → yes
7. Kissed anyone on your friend list → no
8. How many people on your friend list do you know in real life → too much
9. How many kids do you want to have → 3
10. Do you have any pets → no
11. Do you want to change your name→ no
12. What did you do for your last birthday → have a special moment with someone
13. What time did you wake up today → 9.30 AM
14. What were you doing at midnight last night? → in a call with Billy
15. Name something you CANNOT wait for → much
16. Last time you saw your father→ 30 minutes ago
17. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life → be a good person
18. What are you listening to right now → nothing
19. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom → yeah
23. What's getting on your nerves right now? → -_- nothing
24. Most visited web page → twitter

1. What's your name → Natasya Olivia Dewanto
2. Nicknames → Tasya
3. Relationship Status → taken
4. Zodiac sign → pisces
5. Male or female or transgendered → female
6. Elementary → SDI Al - Azhar 08 Kembangan
7. Middle School → SMPN 111 Jakarta
8. High school → SMAN 78 Jakarta
10. Hair color → dark brown
11. Long or short → long
16. Height → dunno
17. Do you have a crush on someone? → yes
18. What do you like about yourself → much
19. Piercings →
20. Tattoos → no
21. Righty or lefty → -_-

FIRSTS :
22. First surgery →
23. First piercing → never
24. First best friends → dieska
26. First sport you joined → swim?
27. First pet → hamster
28. First vacation → bali!
29. First concert → forget
30. First crush → forget
49. Eating → -_-
50. Drinking → --_-
52. I'm about to → idk
53. Listening to → forget
55. Waiting for → forget

YOUR FUTURE :
58. Want kids? → yes of course
59. Want to get married? → yes
60. Careers in mind? → psychologist
68. Lips or eyes → eyes
69. Hugs or kisses → hugs
70. Shorter or taller → taller
71. Older or Younger → older
72. Romantic or spontaneous → both
73. Nice stomach or nice arms → both
74. Sensitive or loud → sensitive
77. Trouble maker or hesitant → not both of it

HAVE YOU EVER :
78. Kissed a stranger → no
79. Drank hard liquor → no
80. Lost glasses/contacts → no
81. Sex on first date → no
82. Broken someone's heart → yes
83. Had your own heart broken → yes
85. Been arrested → no
86. Turned someone down → yes?
87. Cried when someone died → yes
88. Liked a friend that is a girl? → no

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself → yes
90. Miracles → yes
91. Love at first sight → yes
92. Heaven → yes
93. Santa Clause → no? maybe?
95. Kiss on the first date? → yes
96. Angels → yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
97. Is there one person you want to be with right now ? → yes
98. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time → no
100. Posting this as 100 Truths? → yes

B! (give love a try)

haaaaaaaaaaaai. long time no see ya guys. saat ini bisa dibilang lagi suka dukanya hidup. tapi saat ini yang mau gue ceritain adalah sukanya dulu tapi dukanya juga deh tapi nanti yaaaa. sekarang gue mau cerita senengnya dulu. btw gue jadian sama someone namanya...............................guess who? namanya adalah Billy Muhammad Fadillah. gue jadian sama dia tanggal 2 februari 2011 setelah beberapa minggu deket. gue sama dia mulai deket lagi pas hari rabu tanggal 12 januari 2011. lama banget ngga sih pdktnya? tapi dengan jangka waktu selama itu kita bahagia bahagia aja tuh ngejalanin semuanya walau orang nanya mulu gue jadian apa engga sama Billy.


sekarang udah mau 2 minggu wkwkwk masih baru banget kan ya tapi gue sayang kok sama dia. yang di post 'ex boyfriend; case closed' itu bener bener gue jalanin kan? good for this change. pokoknya sekarang gue sayang sama pacar baru gue itu. gue yakin kok dia ngga seperti kata orang-orang yang bilang dia playboy lah atau apapun itu. lagian gue udah kenal dia sejak SMP dan ya menurut gue dia adalah orang yang baik dan serius jadi.......................apa yang harus gue takutin kalo pacaran sama dia? ditinggal? gue udah sering di tinggal ya walau belom kebal tapi gue udah tau gimana tanda-tanda cowok yang bakalan ninggalin gue. takut di selingkuhin? itu sih paling-paling beware deh tapi gue percaya dia ngga akan selingkuh, paling suka sama beberapa cewek dan semua orang punya hak untuk suka sama seseorang jadi? ini mah tergantung aja dianya gatel apa engga.

tapi suatu tragedi terjadi sebelum kita jadian. gue sama dia kecelakaan di jembatan deket peninsula. kita berdua jatoh dari motor yang lagi dia bawa ngebut. ya lo semua tau lah jadinya gimana. saat ini udah 2 minggu setelah kejadian itu dan gue belum bisa jalan juga. hari ini gue kesekolah cuma buat klinik dan untuk naik, susahnyaaaaa setengah mampus deh. tapi gue harus bisa ngelawan rasa sakit itu, gimana pun gue masih punya tanggungan di sekolah. gue udah melewatkan banyak hal disekolah dan gue udah melalaikan tugas gue sebagai murid. tapi kejadian itu ngga ngerubah apapun diantara gue dan Billy. we still keep our love. rasa marah gue sama dia yang ngga mau denger kata-kata gue ketutup sama rasa sayang gue ke dia. terus tadi kita baru ketemu lagi setelah 2 minggu. damn I miss him so much. ya walau tadi dia dijemput bokapnya dan harus buru-buru pulang tapi tetep kena marah, dia tetep senyum kok ke gue. sebelum pulang dia genggam tangan gue dan itu makin bikin gue berat lepasinnya. cuma 10 menit ketemunya :( senin masuk ngga ya gue? valentine tuh........................

Billy & me
itu dandanan termenor seumur hidup gue. kalo ngga buat pentas juga ogah

kesimpulannya....................gue sama dia selalu bersama kan dalam keadaan suka maupun duka? itu yang gue butuhin dari sebuah hubungan. tadi pas turun dari lantai 2 pas selesai klinik juga ada dia kok yang gendong gue. maaf ya bil aku cekek abisnya kakiku sakit pas digendong tadi-_-

last; Love you, Bil



to be continue......

xoxo, Tasya

what they taught

Lady Gaga taught me Its okay to be different.

Ke$ha taught me to be myself and not care what anyone else thinks.

Bruno Mars taught me to do anything for that one person I love.

Eminem taught me that life is hard but you can make it through.

Taylor Swift taught me not every guy is going to treat me right.

Michael Jackson taught me to always love the people around me.

Bob Marley taught me to live my life in peace.

and Music taught me how to live.

xoxo, Tasya

mix your name

I got it from someone's blog. terus gue nyobain dan its good enough kok. try it guys.

1. YOUR REAL NAME:
natasya olivia
2. YOUR GANGSTA NAME:
(first 3 letters of real name plus izzle)
natizzle
3. YOUR SPY NAME:
(favorite colour and favourite animal)
pink hamster
4. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME:
(your middle name and street you live on/or neighborhood if it's a number)
olivia magdalena
5. YOUR STAR WARS NAME:
(the first 3 letters of your last name, and first 2 letters of your first name)
olina
6. YOUR SUPERHERO/CRIMINAL NAME:
(your 2nd favorite colour, and favourite drink)
purple ice tea
7. YOUR IRAQI NAME:
(2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, 1st letter of your last name, 2nd letter of your moms maiden name, and 3rd letter of your dads)
naolivyudew
8. YOUR WITNESS PROTECTION NAME:
(parents middle names)
yuliadewanto
9 . YOUR GOTH NAME:
(black, and the name of one of your pets)
Black marcey
10 . YOUR HOOD NAME:
(first 3 of your first name, and add -iqua)
nasiqua

xoxo, Tasya

cute nail!

LOOK HERE! its-so-damn-awesome! gimana coba bisa bikin kuku kayak gitu. keren banget ya sumpah. gue juga mau dong kalo digambar kayak gitu kukunya (krik.....-_-") tapi gue serius ya ini lucu banget.



kalo aja ada dimana gitu bikinnya, kabarin gue dooong, pengen banget hehehe :)

xoxo, Tasya

English class

hello, I want to tell you about my english class which it so the most bored class ever! today I've presentation about describing a picture that we were have permission to choose by my self. I really hate the teacher, you ask me why? because her face is so-not-like-the-student banget! hell ya. lo harus liat sendiri deh tampangnya ngg ada senyum sama sekali like when we smile, we have to pay.

I describe this picture:

"In this picture, we can see a woman and a dog who are being looked toward the vast sea. they are on the hill that were located quite far from the beach. the colour of the sea is blue, matching with the skies colour. at the end of the sea in this picture, it look a bit warped. grass on the hill look dark green and weel-organize, although there are some part that slightly chipped."

padahal tau deh itu bener apa engga, gurunya diem-diem aja tuh ngga bilang apapun, komentar aja engga. krik banget deh dan malesinnya dia tuh segaring-garingnya guru, cuma dia yang selalu ngerjain tugas, no fun banget. I mean it.

terus ya disuruh bikin cerita tentang pengalaman kita saat ngelakuin olahraga air dan gue..................parasailing-_-" ha ha ha dan kayak gini nih awalnya.

"4 years ago, I have ever done parasailing. its feels like I really feel free. I can feel the wind, I can touch the sky, I can see the whole world with my eyes. I can see the blue sky and I enjoy the fly. first, I don't even think that I will did it cause I'm too scared to start but my father said 'it okay, you can do it, its make you relax.' so I trust it and yeah I fly!"

eh yang keluar malah yang lain hahaha bego banget abis ngga tau mau ngomong apa. keep it cool B)

xoxo, Tasya

new Zodiak

Capricorn: January 20 - February 16
Aquarius: February 16 - March 11
Pisces: March 11 - April 18
Aries: April 18 - May 13
Taurus: May 13 - June 21
Gemini: June 21 - July 20
Cancer: July 20 - August 10
Leo: August 10 - September 16
Virgo: September 16 - October 30
Libra: October 30 - November 29
Ophiuchus: November 29 - December 17
Sagittarius: December 17 - January 20

how its sound guys? if you ask me, I'm fine with this change cause I'm still Pisces girl. but I guess it just some issue

56 out of 132 stupid things

out are required to answer ALL the following questions.
I’ve done —- out of the 132 stupid things.

99/132 means you scored a distinction for doing stupid things! (although that’s not really an achievement hahaha)


Level 1
() Smoked A Cigarette
() Smoked A Cigar
() Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
() Drank Alcohol

SO FAR: 0

Level 2
(1) Fall In Love with non living thing
() Been Dumped
() Shoplifted
() Been Fired
() Been In A Fist Fight

SO FAR: 1

Level 4
(2) Had A Crush On An Older Person
(3) Skipped School
() Slept With A Co-worker
(4) Seen Someone / Something Die

SO FAR: 4

Level 5
(5) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your Facebook Friends (WTH)
() Been To Paris
() Been To Spain
(6) Been On A Plane
() Thrown Up From Drinking ( :D )

SO FAR: 6

Level 6
(7) Eaten Sushi
() Been Snowboarding/Skiing
(8) Met Someone BECAUSE Of Facebook
() Been in a Mosh Pit

SO FAR: 8

Level 7
() Been In An Abusive Relationship
() Taken Pain Killers
(9) Love/loved Someone Who You Cant Have
() Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
() Made A Snow Angel

SO FAR: 9

Level 8
(10) Had A Tea Party
() Flown A Kite
(11) Built A Sand Castle
() Gone mudding
(12) Played Dress Up

SO FAR: 12

Level 9
() Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
() Gone Sledging
(13) Cheated While Playing A Game
(14) Been Lonely
(15) Fallen Asleep At Work / School

SO FAR: 15

Level 10
(16) Watched The Sun Set
(17) Felt An Earthquake
(18) Killed A Snake

SO FAR: 18

Level 11
() Been Tickled
() Been Robbed / Vandalized
() Been cheated on
() Been Misunderstood

SO FAR: 18

Level 12
(19) Won A Contest
() Been Suspended From School
() Had Detention
() Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident

SO FAR: 18

Level 13
() Had / Have Braces
() Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(19) Danced in the moonlight

SO FAR: 19

Level 14
(20) Hated The Way You Look
() Witnessed A Crime
() Pole Danced
(21) Questioned Your Heart
(22) Been obsessed with post-it-notes

SO FAR: 22

Level 15
() Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
(23) Been Lost ( SHIT SO OFTEN! LOL)
() Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
(24) Swam In The Ocean
(25) Felt Like You Were Dying

SO FAR: 25

Level 16
(26) Cried Yourself To Sleep
(27) Played Cops And Robbers
(28) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
(29) Sang Karaoke
(30) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins

SO FAR: 30

Level 17
(31) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn’t
() Made a Prank Phone Call
() Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
(32) Kissed In The Rain

SO FAR: 32

Level 18
() Written A Letter To Santa Claus
(33) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About
(34) Blown Bubbles
() Made A Bonfire On The Beach or anywhere

SO FAR: 34

Level 19
() Crashed A Party
(35) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(36) Gone Rollerskating / Blading
(37) Had A Wish Come True
() Been Humped By A Monkey

SO FAR: 37

Level 20
() Worn Pearls
() Jumped Off A Bridge
() Swore at the teacher, in front of them
(38) Swam With Dolphins

SO FAR: 38

Level 22
() Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cube
(39) Kissed A Fish (dolphin’s a fish, aite?)
() Worn The Opposite Sex’s Clothes
(40) Sat On A Roof Top

SO FAR: 40

Level 23
() Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
() Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
(41)Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
(42) Recently stayed Up for a while talking to someone you care about

SO FAR: 42

Level 24
() Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(43) Climbed A Tree
(44) Had/Been In A Tree House.
(45) Been scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone

SO FAR: 45

Level 25
(46) Believed In Ghosts
() Have had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes
() Gone Streaking
() Visited Jail

SO FAR: 46

Level 26
() Played Chicken
(47) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
() Been Told You’re Hot By A Complete Stranger
() Broken A Bone
() Been Easily Amused

SO FAR: 47

Level 27
(48) Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
() Made A Porn Video
(49) Caught A Butterfly
(50) Laughed So Hard Until You Cried
(51) Cried So Hard You Laughed

SO FAR: 51

Level 28
() Mooned/Flashed Someone
() Had Someone Moon/Flash You
(52) Cheated On A Test
(53) Forgotten Someone’s Name
() French Braided Someones Hair
() Gone Skinny Dipping
() Been Kicked Out Of Your House
(54) Tried to hurt yourself

SO FAR: 54

Level 29
() Rode A Roller Coaster (HELL YEAHHH!!!) :DD
() Went Scuba-Diving/Snorkeling
() Had A Cavity
(55) Black-Mailed Someone
() Been Black Mailed

SO FAR: 55

Level 31
() Been Used
() Fell Going Up The Stairs
() Licked A Cat
(56) Bitten Someone
() Licked Someone

SO FAR: 56

Level 32
() Been shot at/or at gunpoint
() Had sex in the rain
() Flattened someones tires
() Rode your car/truck until the gas light came on
() Got five dollars or less worth of gas

Grand Total: 56

A Walk To Remember

sebuah film dari novel seorang penulis cerita romantis terkenal, Nicholas Sparks. film adaptasi ini membuat hati kita tersentuh dengan cerita cinta yang dialami Jamie Sullivan dan Landon Carter. cerita yang dimulai dengan permusuhan diantara mereka yang berubah menjadi kisah cinta bahagia sampai akhirnya Jamie mengakui kalo dia sakit leukimia. gue ngga nyangka banget tiba-tiba kisah yang romantis dan fabs kayak gitu ternyata menuai konflik dipertengahan. dari awal sih keliatan kalo si Jamienya sakit karena wajah pucetnya tapi kan gue ngga neting, gue kira emang ternyata kayak gitu. eh ngga taunya.................

dan ini sinopsis aslinya yang gue copy:
When a prank on a fellow high-school student goes wrong, popular but rebellious Landon Carter is threatened with expulsion. His punishment is mandatory participation in various after-school activities, such as tutoring disadvantaged children and performing in the drama club's spring musical. At these functions he is forced to interact with quiet, bookish Jamie Sullivan, a girl he has known for many years but to whom he has rarely ever spoken. Their differing social statures leave them worlds apart, despite their close physical proximity.

When Landon has trouble learning his lines, he asks Jamie for help. She agrees to help him if he promises not to fall in love with her. Landon laughs off the strange remark, believing Jamie to be the last person with whom he would ever fall in love. After all, Landon has access to the prettiest and most popular girls in town; and between her shy demeanor and old-fashioned wardrobe, Jamie doesn't exactly fall into that category.

Landon and Jamie begin practicing together at her house after school. The two form a tentative friendship, and Landon learns that Jamie has a wish list of all the things she hopes to do in her life, such as getting a tattoo and being in two places at once. One day, Jamie approaches Landon at his locker, where he is hanging out with some of his friends. When Jamie asks Landon if they are still on for practice that afternoon he smirks "In your dreams". His friends laugh and Landon's smirk falters as Jamie's face fills with betrayal and embarrassment. That afternoon Landon arrives at Jamie's house, hoping that Jamie will still agree to help him. But she refuses to open the door. When she eventually does, she sarcastically remarks that they can be "secret friends". She slams the door in his face when he agrees. Landon eventually learns the script by himself.

During the play, Jamie astounds Landon and the entire audience with her beauty and voice. Landon kisses Jamie during the play, which was not in the script, and Landon tries to get close to Jamie, but she repeatedly rejects him. It is only after a mean joke played on Jamie by Landon's friends that Jamie agrees to get to know Landon after he punches out Dean and shuns Belinda (his friends who played the joke) and takes Jamie home. The two pursue a relationship. He takes her out to dinner and dances with her, something he never did for anyone else. When he discovers that Jamie has a wish list, he sets out to help her accomplish them. One memorable date had Landon taking Jamie to the state line. He excitedly positions her on the line in just the right way, and when Jamie asks him what he's doing he tells her "You're in two places at once". Her face lights up with joy, as she realizes that Landon set out to make her impossible dreams come true.

Jamie finally tells Landon that she has terminal leukemia and has stopped responding to treatments. Landon gets upset at first. Jamie tells him the reason why she didn't tell him because she was moving on with her life and using the time she left but then Landon happened and she fell in love with him. Jamie starts to break down as she says to Landon "I do not need a reason to be angry with God." and she flees.

Landon goes to his doctor father's house and asks him to help Jamie. His father freaks out a bit and says that he needs to examine Jamie and know her medical history before he could do anything. Landon leaves in a huff.

Landon and Jamie make up the next day. They hug and he tells her that he will be there for her. Soon, word gets out about Jamie's illness. Eric, Landon's best friend comes and tells him how sorry he is and that he didn't understand. Dean and Belinda both come and apologize.

Jamie's cancer gets worse and she collapses in her father's arms. He rushes her to the hospital where he meets Landon. Landon doesn't leave Jamie's side until her father practically has to pry him away. Jamie's father sits with Jamie and tells her that "If I've kept you too close, it's because I wanted to keep you longer." Jamie tells him that she loves him and her father breaks down.

The next day, Landon comes to the hospital and sees Jamie being wheeled out of there. He asks what's going on. Jamie asks him to thank his father for her. Landon asks Jamie's father what she means. He tells him that his father is going to pay for private homecare for Jamie. Landon is stunned. Late that night, Landon knocks on his father's front door. His father answers. Landon whispers "thank you." His father hugs him. With all the exhaustion and fear billowing over, Landon breaks down in tears in his dad's arms.

Landon continues to fulfill various wishes on Jamie's list, such as building her a telescope so she can see a comet. Through this process, Landon and Jamie learn more about the nature of love. The movie ends with Jamie's death, but only after the couple are married in the same chapel as was Jamie's deceased mother, the event that topped Jamie's wish list. Landon himself becomes a better person through Jamie's memory, achieving the goals that he set out to do, like she did.

Four years later, Landon visits Jamie's father. It is obvious that Jamie helped him to focus and become a better person. For example, he reveals he has finished college and been accepted to medical school; prior to meeting her he had no plans for life after high school. He tells Jamie's father that he is sorry he could not grant Jamie's wish to witness "a miracle" before she died. Her father says "She did. It was you"


then, what do you think? I love this movie so much! and now, I wanna share some photo and script about the scene on this movie.

Dean: If there is a greater power, why is it he can't get you a new sweater?
Jamie: Because, he's too busy looking for your brain.

Jamie: Please don't pretend like you know me, ok?
Landon: But I do, I do. We've had all the same classes in the same school since kindergarten. Why you're Jamie Sullivan. You sit at lunch table 7. Which isn't exactly the reject table, but is definitely in self exile territory. You have exactly one sweater. You like to look at your feet when you walk. Oh, oh, and yeah, for fun, you like to tutor on weekends and hang out with the cool kids from "Stars and Planets." Now how does that sound?
Jamie: Thoroughly predictable, nothing I haven't heard before.
Landon: You don't care what people think about you?
Jamie: No.

Jamie: [after she and Landon keep switching the radio station] Forty-two.
Landon: "Forty-two", what do you-what do you mean "forty-two"?
Jamie: Forty-two is "Be friend somebody I don't like". It's a to-do list I have.
Landon: What, like getting a new personality?
Jamie: Spend a year in the Peace Corps, make a medical discovery...
Landon: That's ambitious.
Jamie: ...Be in two places at once, get a tattoo.
Landon: What's number one?
Jamie: I'd tell you, but then I'd have to kill you.

Landon: What are you doing here?
Jamie: I could ask you the same question.
Landon: Do you normally walk alone in cemeteries at night?
Jamie: Maybe.

Landon: Listen, Jamie, I was hoping we could run lines together?
Jamie: Okay, but just not so anybody knows, right?
Landon: Well I just figured we could surprise everyone with how good I get.
Jamie: Like we could be secret friends.
Landon: Exactly, exactly it's like you're reading my mind.
Jamie: Great umm... maybe you could read mine.
[she gives him a cold glare and turns away]
Landon: Jamie, Jamie I can't just be your friend.
Jamie: Landon, look, I thought I saw something in you, something good, but I was very wrong.


Landon: Jamie, I'm trying here, OK? Maybe... maybe I miss spending time with you. Maybe you inspire me.
Jamie: Sounds like bull.
Landon: Which part?
Jamie: All of it.
Landon: Well it's not!
Jamie: Prove it.
Jamie: You don't know the first thing about being someone's friend.
Landon: I don't want to just be your friend.
Jamie: You don't know what you want.
Landon: Neither do you. Maybe you're just too scared that someone might actually want to be with you.
Jamie: And why would that scare me?
Landon: Because then you wouldn't be able to hide behind your books, or your frickin' telescope, or your faith. No, no, you know the real reason why you're scared? It's cause you wanna be with me too.

Jamie: [crying, runs into Landon]
Landon: [holds her] This is about me, okay? This is not you. Wait here.
Jamie: [nods]

Landon: I might kiss you.
Jamie: I might be bad at it.
Landon: That's not possible.
Landon: Jamie... I love you.
[long pause]
Landon: Now would be the time to say something.
Jamie: I told you not to fall in love with me.

Landon: Can you find this star, right here?

Jamie: Sure. So why am I looking for this star?
Landon: Because I had it named for you. See? It's official. It's from the International Star Registry.
Jamie: This is wonderful... I love you.
Landon: So, what's your number one?
Jamie: To marry in the church my mother grew up. It's where my parents were married.



Jamie: I'm sick.
Landon: I'll take you home. You'll be be...
Jamie: No. Landon! I'm sick. I have Leukemia.
Landon: No. You're 18. You - you're perfect.
Jamie: No. I found out two years ago and I've stopped responding to treatments.
Landon: So why didn't you tell me?
Jamie: The doctor said I should go on and live life normally as best I could. I - I didn't want anybody to be weird around me.
Landon: Including me?
Jamie: Especially you!
[Jamie looks down]
Jamie: [Landon gets upset]
Jamie: Ya know, I was getting along with everything fine. I accepted it, and then you happened! I do not need a reason to be angry with God.[ Jamie runs away]

Landon: Are you scared?
Jamie: To death...
[Landon looks upset]
Jamie: Lighten up.
Landon: It's not funny.
Jamie: I'm scared of not being with you.
Landon: Oh baby, that will never happen... I'll be here.

Landon: Hey. How are you feeling?
Jamie: I'm ok, how are you?
Landon: Pretty good.
Jamie: I have something for you.
Landon: You do?
Jamie: Uh hmm... Don't worry it's not a bible. It was my mother's. It's got quotes from all her favorite books, and quotes by famous people. Her thoughts. Come on.
Landon: Okay, let's check it out. Okay..."What is a friend? It's a single soul dwelling in two bodies." -Aristotle.
Jamie: Uh uh, right here.
Landon: Okay. "Find out who you are, and do it on purpose." That's Dolly Parton.
Jamie: I always thought she was smart.
Landon: "Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful."

Landon: Do you love me?

[she nods]
Landon: Will you do something for me, then?
Jamie: [smiles] Anything.
Landon: Will you marry me?
[Jamie smiles and kisses him]

"Jamie saved my life. She taught me everything. About life, hope and the long journey ahead. I'll always miss her. But our love is like the wind. I can't see it, but I can feel it."

that's all I have. pokoknya gue suka banget sama film ini terlebih-lebih gue suka semua bagiannya. sekarang gue lagi coba cari novelnya. wish me luck :)

Big Hug,
Natasya Olivia